… AND, I see including my beloved 193?!
HolyFo … y’all!!
don’t you know when you’re loving anybody baby
you’re taking a gamble on a little sorrow
but then who cares baby
’cause we may not be here tomorrow no
and if anybody should come along
she gonna give you her love and affection
I’d say get it while you can yeah
hey hey get it while you can
hey hey get it while you can
I need something good to get me through the day
Ooooo help me Lord there’s got to be a better way
I need something good to get me through the day
Ooooo help me Lord there’s got to be a better way
[There’s gotta be a better way]
I need something good to get me through the day
Ooooo help me Lord there’s got to be a better way
[There’s got to be a better way]
Well, I was there and I saw what you did, I saw it with my own two eyes
How could I ever forget, it’s the first time, the last time we ever met
But I know the reason why you keep your silence up, no you don’t fool me
The hurt doesn’t show but the pain still grows, it’s no stranger to you or me
How many of you really understand life’s meaning and experiences? I swear not too many! I see things occur, that to me are mind-blowingly motherfucking awesome, and others don’t see a fucking thing? And when, I try explaining to them what just miraculously happened (sorry, Tiff & S for the singling out; but you guys just stood there jaws dropped clueless), they STILL don’t get/see it – a double whammy missed life-learning opportunity, lol! I think most people are oblivious because the special people giving/sending us messages/helping us to understand, aren’t the people others usually give a second thought/glance to. Tip to y’all; quit ogling good-looking, well to do people, eagerly listening to all the bull-crap coming from their beautiful clothes wearing mouths! They don’t have any answers, look elsewhere, is all I’m saying. I do!
This snowball started rolling with my enrolling in a Community College (I graduated head of the class btw; prof told me so) course last summer. Even that, the way I found it online, its immediacy, the fact it wasn’t filled … the way it all fell into perfect place – all these things had special meaning, and I certainly wasn’t lost on it then, nor am I now! Fast forward half a year to last week, and my sit down chit-chat with my girl Jennie, offering her insightful wisdom, and in a matter of a few days, I’m able to accomplish what I wanted to, but hadn’t in all those previous months since I graduated (I did say, numero uno, eh, lol?)!! Stop reading and think about that for a minute! That’s some fucked-up powerful life shit going on … and I SEE it. I SAW it all unfolding in front of my very eyes! And while, I know this is only a baby step in the baby grand scheme of things, to me it’s a fresh start, a new beginning … Rome wasn’t built in a day bitches … And if ya’ll can’t see that, and its significance, then you don’t get what I’m talkin’ ’bout Willis!! TAGDNTOAG!!
What if I say I will never surrender?
They found her in a car
A hose to the window
And the motor running hot
Seems she couldn’t take it
The rhetoric of life
Someone found her naked
With a note right by her side
By her side oh by her side
She can’t take it back
Neither can I
No neither can I
Mommy and daddy I’ve borrowed the car to sleep on the floor
I’m sorry so much for bringing my own living hell to your door
Thanks for all the flowers at the ringside seat
Thanks for nothing everyone the prayers were too weak
This is the way it happens all the time
Can you pay attention to everyone that cries
Remember you can make it through
And make it new
Only if you try
You better try
Cause you can’t take it back
Neither can I
No neither can I
Mommy and daddy I’ve borrowed the car to sleep on the floor
I’m sorry so much for bringing my own living hell to your door
But things had gotten heavy everything was deep
Nothing really mattered
So I just went to sleep
I just went to sleep
And I can’t take it back
I won’t try
I won’t try
I won’t try
I won’t try
I won’t try
it seems there’s something deep inside of you
and I can tell that you’ve been lonely
and you’ve had hard times too
cause we believed for nothing it seems
and now it’s shattered all apart and like a broken heart
it’s the end it’s a start
I don’t wanna talk about that anymore when there’s nothing going on and something should be done
and I wanna live if I have to die
if I have to die if I have to die
I tried all night not to break down and cry as the tears rolled down my face
I felt so cold and empty like a lost soul out of place
And the mirror mirror on the wall sees my smile it fades again
Sometimes I wish to God I didn’t know now the things I didn’t know then
… and give me something to believe in
to give your love no matter what
is what she said
I love all of you
hurt by the cold
so hard and lonely too
when you don’t know yourself
my friends are so distressed
and standing on the brink of emptiness
no words I know of to express
this emptiness
One more time around
Might do it
One more time around
Might make it
in a champagne supernova in the sky
how many special people change
how many lives are living strange
where were you when we were getting high
but you and I we live and die
the world’s still spinning round
we don’t know why
why why why why
… I’m picking up whatever is mine
yeah runnin’ down a dream that never would come to me
woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo
woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo
woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo
woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo woohoo …
… sorry Jimi, takin’ ’bout Jehovah here … not that I endorse ANY religion, or prescribe to the concept of organized religion for that matter … ’cause I motherfucking DON’T … and I ain’t lookin’ for Holy Rollers to click [follow] so please don’t … it’s not like one’s better (or worse) than any other … and for the record, I’m affiliated with none … and PROUDLY lettin’ ya know. I do believe in a higher power, am extremely aware and attuned to daily occurrences in my life that are outta the ordinary and difficult to explain, and while not sure how to classify it … maybe it’s God, (or A God) … maybe not, I dunno, but I do believe there’s more to this (life, I mean) than this!! Today (in my eyes) was proof of it … and my first thought was … Sham … but thinking and rethinking it deeper and further, backpedaling to the beginning … realized it WAS Angelo who set the wheels of this wonderful day in motion. Thanks for comin’a-knockin’ when you did … and thank you for the literature, and good luck helping/guiding others in your noble pursuit. Hmmm, Angelo – that means Angel, no?!?! And in a life comes full circle, a yinn’-yangin’ pushme-pullme equilibrium spiritual kinda way … attribute today’s good fortune to you my friend!!
one-hundred-eighty-woohoo-smackeroos …